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Looking too much at the work of others is like looking at their genitals, it passes the time, but is essentially bad for your self esteem.
2
There is a natural tendency within me to flee stasis. The funny thing is that because the deeper self won’t allow it, the shallower part of me often dreams about it, desires it. It has been a recurring plan of mine to be ‘forgotten about’. I meant that I wanted to be one of those people you just didn’t hear about for 15 years and then met for 10 minutes and nothing much had happened to them. But I realise now that I didn’t want others to forget me, I wanted to forget myself. In life, there is a deep, counter-vailing desire to not exist. I think the reason I hate Buddhism so much is because they are too obvious in stating that fact. That nibbana is what we all really want, an absence of everything, especially of the pain, and constant effort of living. Perhaps this is what Winogrand means when he tells us how he feels like he doesn’t exist on a good day of shooting.
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All criticisms are correct. All solutions are incorrect. But since we live tenuously, we must prefer the solutions. Political systems are a constant effort in finding bearable incorrect solutions.
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Like walking is a constant state of rescuing yourself from falling, life is a constant attempt at not dying. Death being the natural tendency of all living things (by definition!). We must always, with every breath, with every morsel of hard won food, with every disease fought, lift ourselves from death. To love life one must love effort. There is no greater truth. The lovely thing is that we have, through survival of the keenest, gotten very, very good at convincing ourselves that life is worth it. The best of us have slowly fallen in love with the world and each other. The worst of us have imagined a world far worse than this one.
Posted 2 years ago
