
It was an Autumn morning in New York. The Artist is half an hour early. He has found a spot right in the middle of the bleak cafe he likes and sits looking towards the door. He is dressed in a black t-shirt, black pants, black socks, and black shoes. Later he tells me that he is wearing quick-dry underwear which are black. He says they dry in a hotel room within the hour. He has on black plastic glasses and behind those glasses are stiff brown eyes, which throughout our meeting, focused on me with firmness. His hair was closely cropped, and black.
Inquisitor
Sorry I’m late.
Artist
You aren’t. I’m early. Usually, I like being on time. Not late, not early. But I wanted to be in the space, and get used to thinking in here before you came. Educators suggest studying in conditions as close to the exam as possible, so I …
Inquisitor
Is this an exam?
Artist
Not for you. But for me it’s … I want to make sure I say things in the right way. You already know, but this is my first interview. And, sometimes … well, I just want to get the nuances across to you.
Inquisitor
Sure, but I don’t want you to feel …
Artist
I’m not … stressed. If that’s what you mean.
Inquisitor
Well, I don’t want you to think that we won’t have time to talk things out. We’ve about 4,000 words in the layout for next month, so … we can take our time about things.
Artist
Be gentle. I’m pretty hungry so I’ve already ordered, did you want to get something?
Inquistor
Nope, I’ve already eaten. I’ve a daughter who stayed over on the weekend so I’m a little tired of eating out. Ok, you live around here right?
Artist
Yeah, about two blocks away.
Inquisitor
And you’re liking it?
Artist
Yeah, I think so. I’ve got a lot of time on my hands at the moment. So, you know, I’m thinking a little too much. And I haven’t really figured out how to take pictures in New York, so I’m just walking around a lot, and thinking in cycles rather than in a straight line.
Inquisitor
Yeah. Well I’ve been feeling like that a little prepping for today. I mean there’s all this writing on your blog, and it’s great to have that there, but it’s a lot to get through, and, well you won’t mind me saying, but there’s contradictions in there about all sorts of things. I guess you’re trying to work it out yourself right?
Artist
Yeah. It’s really a scratch pad rather than a codex.
Inquisitor
Sure. Of course, there are a lot of positions in there that seem pretty stable for you but why don’t you tell me a little about the blog itself, who reads it?
Artist
Mainly ex-girlfriends. And friends who care. I had a girl I didn’t know email me the other day and say she was obsessed with the blog and my photos. That happens once in a while …
Inquistor
Ah, fame comes knocking …
Artist
Well she wasn’t from the New Yorker.
Inquisitor
I guess I ask about the blog, because as you know, a lot of artist don’t really like talking about what they do, and certainly it’s rare to have such a public account of an artist’s education.
Artist
Well, a lot of artist’s have kept Daybooks and so on, journals that are full of this stuff. I was reading Weston’s writings the other day and a lot of it felt really close to what I was trying to do.
Inquisitor
Yes, but that’s really more of a inward looking, diary type stuff …
Artist
Well, this ain’t the 1920s. The private, I think that has really been obliterated. And unsurprisingly by the person themselves. No one forces people to reveal themselves just about to puke at a friends party, but people do. People want to explain themselves. But, you know, people still control their images really strongly, although they are revealing more of it. The looseness hasn’t mean that the knot of the self, or self-representation has come unloose. I think sometimes that the strength with which we can present ourselves has actually become firmer. People now have a more expressive scale with which they can talk about themselves. They can say, well look, I like to party hard on the weekend. But then you do a search on them and they have this linkedin profile which is all very serious, and it’s about networks, and where they studied, where they work and so on.
Inquisitor
So you’re blog is an attempt to control your image.
Artist
Well, when you think about it. If I just wanted a scratchpad like I said before, well why do I need to publish this stuff for everyone on the Internet? And go and publish this stuff on Facebook. I mean obviously I’m trying to communicate to people.
Inquisitor
Sure. And I guess that explains the structure that’s slowly grown on the blog. I mean you have these essays and reviews, and photo notes and stuff.
Artist
Yeah, I think that’s grown organically, it helps me to organise things too as well as maybe make it easy for other people. But you know, not a lot of people come to the site. There’s like 20 visitors a day on average or something.
Inquisitor
Well, many artists have had less that number looking at their thoughts in the past.
Artist
Yeah, I feel that it’s a bit one way though. I mean I don’t allow comments and stuff, and people just consume the stuff, if at all. Back to your question about writing so much, and really a lot of it is about being an artist, or how I’m trying to become a better artist rather than explaining my work, It’s not straight-forward for me.
Inquisitor
You mean, it’s difficult writing that stuff?
Artist
No, that’s not hard, It’s all the stuff I’m thinking about and often it’s just a recounting of what I’ve done that day, so it’s not hard to think through, but what I mean is I’m conflicted about saying so much. That I might be killing the golden goose or something.
Inquisitor
Right, too much analysis and not enough doing.
Artist
Exactly.
Inquisitor
Well there is a lot of stuff there …
Artist
Yeah, I put up motives and plans and sometimes analysis and it’s revealing but I guess I’ve always been like that. I could never keep stuff hidden, if I get excited then I’m excited and I want to tell everyone.
Inquisitor
Well, it doesn’t seem to have hurt your work. You seem to have been very productive over the past year.
Artist
Yeah, well. There’s always the fear. I guess the other thing that I worry about is, well, shouldn’t I be putting in all this effort that I’m putting into explaining myself and what I’ve been doing, well, wouldn’t that be better put into taking pictures, experimenting out on the streets. And really, that’s something that makes really frightens me. I look at people like Winogrand, or Friedlander and they just, they were just always out there all the time. Or it seems like that from what you read about them.
Inquisitor
Well, Winogrand probably was, but that may have been because he needed to be, because of whatever difficulties he had with … you know … not being ok with himself and the world. But Friedlander has spent a lot of time researching, playing around, or making all those books his made. I mean, if that’s what you feel like doing … I think Friedlander has like 3 kids too.
Artist
Yeah, you’re right. If I enjoy it I should just do it right? But I, I distrust myself you know, I’ve got to make sure I’m working all the time.
Inquisitor
Does that tattoo on your arm just say ‘work’?
Artist
Yeah.
Inquisitor
That’s pretty undramatic! For an artist especially.
Artist
Is it? It ain’t for me. It’s the most serious, dramatic thing I think about. Am I working or not? Or am I just jacking off you know? I mean thinking is great, you need it, but without the hard test of reality, without the corrective of trying out your ideas for real, or making them real, well you can make lots of mistakes and not know it. You, one, don’t produce much, and second, what you do produce is not the best it could be.
Inquisitor
Right, sure. I guess the blog, all that writing, is kind of a test of the ideas?
Artist
Yes and no. I think it’s a test, but It’s not the best test. I wrote somewhere that an idea is worth nothing if it isn’t written down somewhere. But even when it is, it’s only worth 2 cents. You really have to go in and try that idea in the real world to see if it works, is right. And it sounds obvious, but that’s what separates people who make good stuff, to those who don’t. You’re really in a small minority if you go and actually try out an idea for real.
Inquisitor
But, see, I’ve been really enjoying some of your writing … as writing. I mean if the writing you do is treated as something that isn’t just incidental, but something worthwhile and publishable well, then maybe it’s worth spending time on.
Artist
Sure, but what I worry about is the maybe roughly 5000 photographers who’ve published professional books, and who haven’t made it. You know who haven’t joined the 50 or maximum 100 or so greats. I don’t want to be in the 5000. I really want to do something significant and something new. The way I put it to myself is that I want to be in an encyclopaedia, with a big article.
Inquisitor
But which encyclopaedia? I mean many of the 5000 are in the photography encyclopaedias.
Artist
<laugs> Yeah, right. Well I’d like to be in a general encyclopaedia, but the minimum is an encyclopaedia on art. I wanted to say something else about the blog. I think it’s greatest benefit has been that it has made me practice being regularly productive. I mean it’s been a great challenge to keep it alive, to keep on feeding it, and that’s brought about some good habits in me. It’s not perfect, often I don’t revise things at all before I put it up, but you know, I do put a lot of stuff up and that’ll come in handy.
Inquisitor
I agree. I’ve rarely met artists who I can find out so much about before I even meet them. Nearly find out too much about! I mean, all the very best artists think hard about what they do, but you don’t usually get to see that. I hope we do start seeing more of that. It’ll make my job easier for one.
Artist
That was an important consideration for me.
Inquisitor
<laughs>
Artist
Well, I’m probably contradicting what I said before, but it’s true. You know, I’m ambitious, and I think I really want people to know that there is intelligence, and hard work, or some kind of meaning behind what I’m doing. If I’m really honest with myself, I want them to know that I’m serious, or ambitious as well.
Inquisitor
Right, but you know, how many people are going to go through your blog. I mean, when you make a submission or whatever. I’m not trying to be aggressive, but you’re still pretty unknown.
Artist
Well, I won’t be after this right?
Inquisitor
I wouldn’t bet on it!
Artist
Right. Well, a couple of things. As I was saying before, I’m really in two minds about how much I should be analysing my work, and then how much I should be talking about it. On the other hand is if I do talk about it, although what’s on the blog is really like a river flowing, and things kind of just float away, well just the process of writing is really helpful. I mean, I like thinking on the page because bad thinking, or muddled thinking really becomes obvious on the page because you know writing is so assertive, you are saying something. And you can test things out to see if you really understand them, and to see where you are contradicting yourself or whatever. I mean, the problems you have to solve often result from either incomplete information, or some kind of contradiction. And I think the process of writing really brings those things to the surface.
Inquisitor
Of course the question you must be thinking of, well, I know you’ve studied Winogrand very closely, and he was, famously, very gnomic, or reserved about making statements about what he was doing …
Artist
Yes, but it wasn’t that he wasn’t thinking about what he was doing. I think he had really got to the heart of the problems he was dealing with. And that’s no mean feat, because you know, he was dealing with some of the most subtle problems in art, and some unique problems in photography. He was really trying to capture moments which said things so quietly, and which were so elusive, that they were nearly not there. So he … I think he … well one, he knew that it was hard to put into words what he was trying to do, because it was just a faint feeling, and of course, he didn’t want to pin down his work to any one thing and make it easy to categorise or explain and kill it. I think once you explain something you’ve simplified it right? You’ve taken away some of the magic of it. Also, I think what people say about him not wanting to, as I was saying before about killing the golden goose.
Inquisitor
Right, right. But that’s a little dishonest isn’t it?
Artist
Maybe it is. But so what? Who says we’re obligated to tell the truth? To explain ourselves? I think at the moment, because nothing big has happened for me yet, you know I’m at that phase where I need to get myself out there. Tell people about what I do. So, I think a lot of artists have done that: initially explained themselves until they don’t need to. Because I think that it’s best not to, but only when you have people who will try to do that for you. People who care enough already about what you’ve made, or trust what you’ve made to spend time trying to work out what new thing you are trying to say is. But before you have that, well, you’ve got to bang your own cymbals, no matter how much you may hate cymbals.
Inquisitor
Right. So what do you think about this killing the golden goose thing? I mean, that too much analysis subverts the creative alchemy to use another metaphor.
Artist
Well, I’m not sure. I know that when you’re in the midst of shooting you’re thinking, if it can be called thinking, about completely other things. I think thinking beforehand can hurt, if that thinking is bad thinking. I mean, I don’t think you should go into a day of shooting saying that this is it, this is your subject and that’s it. Sometimes you have to, but it shouldn’t be primary in your mind. You can really … one, make it hard to start whatever you are doing, and two, you really do close yourself off to other opportunities. But I think the key thing that Winogrand meant when he said he took pictures of things to see ‘what they looked liked’ as pictures is that photography was a way for him to find new knowledge. And I think that’s really important to creating significant work, or new work. If you just go in there with ideas, well, ‘I want to capture this kind of face’ for example, well you’re just going to confirm your motive. I don’t think you’ll learn anything new. And most of the time you’ll be saying something obvious, something which isn’t new, because well, you probably heard or read about something which has formed your view, and you know, that’s a little boring. Really, what was so great about Winogrand is that he discovered new, wonderfully delicate knowledge about the world in his photographs. Knowledge that had never been shown in that way before. Because, you know, he didn’t push it.
Inquisitor
Well as an artist aren’t you supposed to do that? ‘Push it.’ Impose your personality into, you know, what he called the transformation that happens?
Artist
No, that should come automatically, intuitively. You don’t have to work at imposing who you are, you already are who you are. You have to ‘discover’ who you are with your work. And, you just have to work at producing. What you produce will already be coloured by who you are. And the more interesting you are, or have made yourself, the more finely you see the world, the more depth you see in it, well the deeper your work will be.
Inquisitor
But how about editing? I mean, surely that is the most analytical of tasks. You’re there by yourself looking and choosing images which say what you want.
Artist
But listen to what Winogrand had to say about that. He said that he looks for tension, or energy in the pictures. Now these are nearly ‘technical’ terms, very abstract terms. He doesn’t talk about meanings at all! He just talks about the pictures. Are they interesting pictures? Does the picture make you want to look at it? Does it hold your interest, and does it have a strong feeling about it? Those are the clues. Not the answer but the clues. This is all so that he can discover a photographic kind of knowledge. I think this is why he was so against set up imagery, or anything that clouded the clarity of the lens, because he felt that that was really heavy handed, that by allowing for so much of the artist’s intent you were going to end up with something banal. I think he believed that the consciousness, and really these are my terms, is so affected by what is said in the media, in the papers, by what’s going on, that it takes on the boring, simple, clear ideas that are peddled there.
Inquisitor
And so, he felt that the unconscious, to use your terms, that essence of who he was would reveal the truth …
Artist
You’re nearly there I think. I don’t think that he thought it would reveal the truth, but his truth. That if he could photograph the world enough, and without any agenda, well that he would find out more about himself. And by gaining that knowledge he would have something firmer about who he was, that he would feel less helpless about why he was here in this world.
Inquisitor
But, is that going to far? I mean he used to say that he just loved the process of shooting because he could forget about himself.
Artist
That’s right, I think it was a bit of both. Just getting lost in the act is great. But it’s great because I think he also felt so at harmony with who he was when he was shooting, this totally receptive being, the clearest any human being has ever been … like, that’s what’s so important about photography as an art form. It means that you have to put yourself into the world. And since you are out there in the world, you have to learn how to deal with it. Some go in and they have agendas, or visual or theoretical histories and they try to impose themselves on the moment. But that was too rhetorical for Winogrand. He saw that photography by being such a clear medium, allows us to see things that words can’t describe, feelings that may be so subtle, or so detailed that words and consciously put together statements cannot stretch that far. I think that was his great discovery (or maybe it was what he learnt from Atget). And I think that’s what Szarkowki meant in his essay when he says that he lived within his art. He really lived, gained knowledge of the world through the camera. Not for any reasons of worldly ambition, but the barest reason for why we make art at all, to find out who we are.
Inquisitor
Do you see that as your mission?
Artist
After this conversation, yes, I do.
Inquisitor
Ok. Listen, I think this is going very well, but we will have to do this in parts, I’m only a quarter of the way into what I wanted to talk to you about. How would you feel about continuing this over a two or three sessions?
Artist
That isn’t a problem for me. Could I read the transcript of what we talked about today?
Inquisitor
That’s not a problem. I’ll have it done by midday tomorrow and maybe we can meet in the afternoon.
Artist
Sure. Here at 3 then.
Inquisitor
Right.
Posted 11 months ago